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Med vzvratno vožnjo me vpraša, kam. Končno si pripnem pas in skomignem. »No? Vodi me,« vztraja. »Ne poznam Ljubljane.« Ne pozna niti mene.

While reversing the car, she asks me where to. Finally, I fasten my seatbelt and shrug. ”Well, you guide me” she insists, “I don't know Ljubljana.” She doesn't even know me.

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Usedem se, si sezujem superge in jih odložim na njeno mizo. Tudi nogavice si sezujem, le da jih vržem na tla. Vstanem in sežem v žepe na kavbojkah. Vse, kar najdem, zmečem na mizo. Gumice za lase, tri evre, mali glavnik, ključe, štirideset centov, rizle, umazan filter brez cigarete, nalepke. »Tako ne bova prišli nikamor,« očitajoče ugotavlja Tadeja.

“This is not getting us anywhere,” she says reproachfully. I shrug. Where are we supposed to be getting? I'm not stupid. I hid the brass knuckles under a big rock. They’re no joke. Giuseppe gave them to me, back in February when I last saw him. Don’t fuck around with them, he warned me sternly.

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Ne, nisva ble za skup, verjetn res ne. To zdej niti nima veze. Sam ti dobr veš tud to, da sm jst fakin resn mislila na začetku. Ti si bla prva bejba, v katero sem se zagledala. Čist sem bla fukjena nate, Ana, pol pa zvem ...

All these troubles arose from her old delusions. She got involved with Simi, listened to the Prophet, fucked up college at least five times and also getting a permanent job. Now she became anxious, getting high, drinking and just recently she bedded her only friend.

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... tukaj v Privežicah nikomur ni mar svobode. Ta leži na cesti, pa se nihče ne skloni, da bi jo pobral, ker je imajo vsi polno kapo. Nikomur se ni obnesla. Ne vedo, kaj bi z njo.

She looked more and more like a tattooed drug addict. Only time in prison was missing. But a few years later, a wonderful opportunity appeared that might land her just there.

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Bilo me je strah. Vedela sem, da stara mama umira, in nisem hotela biti zraven, ko bi smrt dejansko prišla po njeno življenje. Hotela sem, da smrt in stara mama to opravita brez mene.

As I was cycling, I suddenly realised with horror that I would only be going there for as long as my grandmother was alive and that the three of us, my grandmother, my dad and I, were already like ghosts in that abandoned house with many empty rooms.

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A ko so tako plesali vsi skupaj, vsi, ki so imeli radi glem rokerje, a niso marali socialne delavke in razredničarke, nekateri med njimi tudi ne učenja ne knjig ne šole nasploh, vsi pa so bili asimulanti ali pa zgube, je bilo vse prav, nobenih razlik po klinih.

Occasionally somebody would meekly ask her to help with a dislodged bike chain. This she knew how to do and she was always happy to help bicycles - not people. And this was the only and real reason why her mother was never summoned to school again.

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Ja, fejst, a ne, kako naj zdaj frendom povem, da bom nekaj časa obiskoval dohtarja za glavo, no, saj ne da bi bil za v Polje, samo tako za družinski turizem. Kar dvignilo se mi je. Vse.

But I’d still prefer to be a winner. If I can, I want to be a winner. But since I wasn’t born into it, I’ll find some other way to become a winner. By hook or by crook – that’s probably the only way of becoming a winner. Unless you were born one, but that’s not the case with me.

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Na vegastih policah so kraljevali strupi proti podganam, mišim, koloradskemu hrošču, solatnim ušem in mačjim bolham – z njimi smo bili varni. S strupi namreč. Tam so bili tudi srpi; bolj zarjaveli za visoko travo in manj zarjaveli za nizko, vsi pa so bili tudi za tetanus.

You said that you wanted everyone to get out at this station so that you could go on drawing funny little people on my arm while I went on imitating fish and that time would stop. Then we imitated the time that has stopped.

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Sedela sem v kuhinji. V želodcu me je peklilo. Mama mi je kuhala puding. Razmišljala sem, da sem morda Vesno oslepila, kar se ni niti najmanj ujemalo z vanilijevim pudingom.

When they came to the entrance, the father and mother took Marja and the child by the hands and rushed them off to see the caged animals. There was a bench nearby, a quiet corner for tired and fed up parents to drown their marriage. The child's parents sat there.

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Ulegla se je na prosto posteljo s kozarcem vina in s cigareto v roki, pokrčila kolena, me pogledala in rekla: »Hočem se ljubiti s celim vesoljem.« Žal to vesolje v praksi ni vključevalo mene.

So you’re just a lesbian,” Meng said to me. Then she pointed to my bag, as if to say that’s a lady’s bag, despite the fact that it was big enough to hold folders and books. But I couldn’t conceive of myself as a lady, young or otherwise, or anything like it.

Oblikovala si je svojo filozofijo o kraji, filozofijo M. U. K. To je pomenilo: majhno – uporabno – kakovostno. Če kradeš majhne predmete, to pravzaprav nikomur ne škodi. Vsakdo na tem svetu lahko pogreši kaj malega, kaj šele trgovine ali velikanski diskonti, tam imajo vendar na stotine majhnih stvari, in to celo povsem enakih.

He told me that one day - if I were in his place, of course - one day, when my wife, mother and aunt had taken off for Ljubljana, and my brats had gone with my shiftless brother to school, I would throw myself under an oncoming train. But since I’m not in his place, I don’t have to do that.

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»S tabo bi lahko bila do konca življenja,« mi je še isti mesec kakor mimogrede rekla. Morali bi se bati tistih, ki nam zatrjujejo, da bi lahko bili z nami do smrti.

I was asking myself how many days it would take before Dara got high once again. I knew that she wouldn’t handle being clean. She never could handle it well. There was always something on which she got wasted: alcohol, pot, acid, E, or women. Like all of us.

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»Predrage gostiteljice in gostitelji,« je nadaljevala Ganca. »Prvi dan pustite goste same doma, da se v miru pokakajo in nemoteno prebrskajo vaš hladilnik.«

Coco could not stop to wonder about the world of dreams. But he determined to try to experience dreaming himself. He wished for simple dreams; dreams in which he would run out of ripe yellow corn or the red flower on his head would get stuck in his wing.

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Zdaj le priznam, da me je gnala radovednost. Ker še nikoli nisem spala z aktivno in sem hotela izkusiti, kako je, če ti ženska ne pusti, da se je dotakneš. Kaj pomeni biti objekt ženski, kakšna je igra moči, ko biologija ni usoda.

Only now do I admit that I was driven by curiosity. Because I had never yet slept with an active and I wanted to know what it was like when a woman doesn’t allow you to touch her. What it means to be an object for another woman, what the power game is like when biology isn’t fate.

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